Thank You and Goodnight

Leaving Las Vegas after my last live show of the reunion/Full Service tour, I thought that we could all use a break. I thought it would be a good thing to have some time away from the five guys from Boston. I thought my NKOTBFFs and I would benefit from taking a break from the craziness. I thought I could pack up the New Kids love and put it away. I thought I could go back to "real" life. I thought that the feelings would fade like they did in 1994. I thought I could let go and stop tweeting. I thought I could stop listening to Summertime, Cover Girl, Don't Give Up On Me, Call It What You Want, Put It On My Tab, Full Service, Close To You, Stare At You, Sexify My Love, Girls, Never Let You Go, Since You Walked Into My Life, and You Got The Flavor over and over again. I thought I could give all of the poor souls in my life who don't like New Kids a break from the mania.

I thought wrong.

The feelings...and craziness...are growing exponentially. Don't get me wrong, my wallet relishes the rest. But, my heart...my heart. I don't know if I ever loved them more than I do right now, today. They have brought so much to us this year and I don't know if there is a big enough way to thank them for it. How do you thank someone for bringing back your childhood? How do you thank someone for being your first "love"? How do you thank someone for giving you something to look forward to when most of the looking has been around at what we've lost this year? How do you thank someone for bringing old friends back into your life? How do you thank someone for the many new friends they've given you? How do you thank someone for all of the laughter, sometimes at their expense, that they've provided? How do you thank someone for letting you love them with all of the craziness and insanity that you posess? How do you thank someone for feeding that mania? How do you thank someone for giving so much, so much more than they will ever know, to you?

Maybe you just say, "thank you." Thank you, New Kids, for giving me an incredible year. Or maybe you say it in videos. Thank you, Donnie, for encouraging me to go wild. Maybe it's in a book. Thank you, Joe, for giving me the opportunity to give to someone in need. Maybe thank you is in a captioned TwitPic. Thank you, Jordan, for all of your facial expressions. Maybe you say it with each step on a treadmill. Thank you, Danny, for caring enough to remind me to stay healthy and take care of myself. Maybe it's in a chant. Thank you, Jon, because you truly are a freakin' pimp.

Maybe that's how you say it.

I say it with a party. I say it with friends gathered around the tv to watch the web cast of the Dallas concert. I say it with food and wine. I say it with time spent together enjoying what brought us together. I say it with every drop of love that I have for my NKOTBFFs. I say it with every moment that I get to spend with these amazing women. And I truly cannot say it enough.